Depression is lying to me about being a bad dad
I've been struggling with postpartum depression since our twins were born 8 months ago and my brain keeps telling me I'm failing. I'm not engaged enough, I'm not patient enough, I'm tired and resentful and what kind of father feels resentful about his own kids? My therapist keeps saying "that's the depression talking" but it FEELS real. Like maybe I'm just genuinely not cut out for this. Has anyone else dealt with this cognitive distortion thing where you know logically it's depression but emotionally it feels like truth?
The engagement thing - are you doing it or is depression telling you that you're not doing it? Because those are different problems. I was convinced I was checked out when really I was just surviving.