Depression is making it hard to be present
My kids want to play with me and I just feel empty. I go through the motions but I'm not really there mentally. The guilt of not being fully present is making the depression worse. It's this awful cycle. On my meds, seeing a therapist, but some mornings I wake up and just don't want to face the day. Just needed to vent to people who get it.
This resonates too much. The going through the motions thing. You're not alone in this. Have you considered talking to your doctor? There's no shame in getting help so you can actually be present again.