Depression makes it hard to be present with my kids
I have bad days where getting out of bed feels impossible and my kids just need me to play with them and I can't. Then I feel guilty for days about it. My wife is supportive but I know she's frustrated too. I've been in therapy for a year and on meds for 8 months and while it's better than it was, I still have these crashes that come out of nowhere. The hardest part is that my kids don't understand why daddy is "tired" all the time. Just wanted to put this out there to see if anyone else is fighting this battle while trying to be a good dad at the same time.
The guilt is the worst part but you're doing better than you think. Bad days happen and your kids will remember that you were there, not that you were 100% on every single day. Be gentle with yourself.