Depression makes parenting feel impossible
Some days I wake up and the thought of getting through the whole day with the kids just feels like too much. I love them but my depression makes everything feel heavy and pointless. Getting them fed, dressed, to activities, all of it feels like I'm pushing a boulder uphill. Then I feel guilty for feeling this way because they need me to be present and I'm just... not. I don't know how much longer I can keep pretending I'm okay.
I get it man, those mornings hit different when depression is in the mix. Even on the tough days, just showing up for them matters more than you probably think it does. You're doing better than you feel right now.