Going back on meds after swearing I wouldn't

Spent two years off medication thinking I had it figured out. Turns out I didn't. Started Zoloft again last week and already feel different - clearer, more patient, less like I'm white-knuckling through every day. It's embarrassing how much better I feel after only 8 days and how dumb I feel for thinking I could just "power through" indefinitely. If you quit meds and are struggling, this isn't a judgment thing - just saying it's okay to go back if it helps.