Started seeing a therapist and wow
Been going for 3 months now and I finally feel like I can breathe again. Turns out a lot of my 'laziness' was actually depression and I wasn't just being a shitty husband/dad. My therapist specializes in postpartum stuff for men (yes apparently that's real) and it's helped me understand why I checked out so hard after our daughter was born. Not gonna lie, took me 18 months to finally reach out but I'm glad I did.
Three months is when it really starts clicking. I hit that same wall around the same time. Therapy felt like a waste the first few weeks but something just shifted.
Congrats seriously. Being able to breathe again is underrated. The laziness thing resonates with me too, never thought it was connected to my mental state until I started working through it.