The Headspace dad meditation thing actually helped
Downloaded Headspace because I was desperate and broke the "install an app" stigma. Did the 10-minute dad meditation series (lol the one literally called "dad mode"). Felt silly the first time ngl. But something about someone saying "your anxiety doesn't define you" in a British accent while I'm hiding in my car at lunch actually stuck with me. Not saying it fixed anything but I'm less angry when I get home now. $13/month, way cheaper than therapy.
the bit where they talk about "running on fumes" really resonated with me. I thought I was just tired but apparently there's actual techniques to not completely lose it when your 3yo is melting down over the wrong color cup. Who knew.