Becoming a dad made me grow up way faster than I wanted to
Not gonna lie I wasn't ready. My son was a surprise. I was still living like I was 22, playing video games till 3am, spending recklessly. Becoming a dad forced me to actually be an adult overnight. No choice. I miss the freedom sometimes. Miss not having to think about college funds and whether my insurance is good enough. Miss being able to just leave and do whatever. But I also feel like I actually like myself now? Like I have purpose instead of just existing. It's a trade I'm glad I made but man the transition sucked.
Surprise kids are the best teachers. My son came when I wasn't ready either and honestly growing up fast was the best thing that happened to me. You'll find new fun that's actually more satisfying.