Getting divorced made me realize I was depressed for years
Not gonna lie the divorce sucked and was painful but looking back now I realize I was genuinely depressed in that marriage for a long time. Just going through motions, barely smiling, everything felt heavy. Now that I have my own place and time for myself I feel like I can actually breathe. Ive started running again, hanging out with friends, dating feels exciting instead of terrifying. My kids are actually seeing a happier version of me which I think is better for them than staying in a bad situation. Wish I had figured this out sooner but better late than never I guess.
Depression sneaks up on you like that sometimes, especially when you're in the thick of it. Sounds like you're in a better headspace now though, and that's what matters.