Going sober changed literally everything
I was a functional alcoholic for years. Thought I had it under control. My kids probably don't even remember a lot of their childhood because I was checked out. Got sober 3 years ago and man it's been a whole different life. Weekends I remember. My kids see their dad actually present. My marriage is real again instead of just coexisting. Some days I miss the numbing feeling but then my 6 year old hugs me and I'm like nope, not worth it. Best decision I ever made.
Getting sober was one of the best decisions I ever made. My kids see a different dad now. Clearer head, more patience, actually remember the conversations we have. Proud of you for getting real about this.