Got sober 2 years ago - being a better dad
I was a functioning alcoholic for like 8 years. Drank every night, didn't think I had a problem. My 6 year old asked me one morning why I was sleeping in the garage. That broke something in me. I got help, did AA, it was brutal but necessary. Now I'm 2 years sober. I miss the escape honestly, some nights are still hard. But I gained so much more. My kids actually want to spend time with me now instead of hiding. I remember everything they tell me. I show up to their games actually present. My wife doesn't look at me with that disappointed face anymore. If you're on the fence about getting help, do it. Your family is waiting for the real you.
Two years is an amazing milestone. I'm still learning what it means to be present with my kids instead of just physically there. The fact that you recognized it and made a change speaks volumes about the kind of dad you want to be.