Got sober and became a dad - complete life reset
3 years sober now and my oldest just turned 5. I missed his first two years because I was deep in it. His mom gave me a second chance when I got clean and honestly that's what did it for me - holding that baby in the hospital and knowing I had a reason to actually change. I miss the ease of just checking out with friends, not gonna lie. But I don't miss waking up with no memory of the night before or the shame. Now I coach his little league team and actually show up to things. I'm present. That's what I gained - everything I lost.
You're a good dude for owning that and turning it around. Missed first two years is rough but the next 13 years of your oldest's life? That's all you now.