Got sober and became a dad on the same timeline

This might be long but I need to share it somewhere. My oldest is 4 now and I've been sober for 5 years, got clean right when we found out about the pregnancy. The guy I was before would not have survived this. Spent most of my 20s and early 30s drinking away my problems and now I'm the dad who actually shows up to little league games sober and remembers them the next day. I miss the escape sometimes, not gonna lie. But I don't miss waking up terrified of what I did the night before. I'm a completely different person and my kids know their real dad instead of some ghost version.