Lost 80 pounds and lost myself in the process
Been thinking about posting this for a while. Got down to my goal weight last month after 2.5 years of basically living at the gym and obsessing over macros. Everyone's proud of me, I look different, clothes fit different. But man, I miss just being able to grab pizza with friends without planning it out 3 days in advance. I miss not thinking about every single thing I eat. The crazy thing is my wife says she misses the version of me that could just relax sometimes. Like I traded one unhealthy relationship with food for another unhealthy one. Currently trying to find the middle ground where I maintain it but also remember how to live.
Man, that's a huge accomplishment but I get what you mean about losing yourself. I've been there with different stuff. Have you thought about just dialing back the gym obsession and finding some balance? Your kids probably want to see you at the playground more than at the gym anyway.