What I miss about pre-dad life
Don't get me wrong, I love my kids more than anything but sometimes I miss the simplicity of my old life. I miss sleeping past 5am. I miss going to the gym whenever I wanted. I miss having an actual conversation with my wife that isn't interrupted by someone crying or needing something. I miss feeling like I was my own person instead of just Dad all the time. I gained so much but I also lost the person I was and that's something nobody really talks about.
This is real and it's okay to feel this way. I miss sleeping past 5am and not worrying about anyone but myself some days. But then my kid says something hilarious and I forget why I was even nostalgic.
You're allowed to miss aspects of your old life while still being fully committed to this one. It's not either or. Give yourself permission to take a night off occasionally and just be you for a few hours.