What I miss most about being the old me

3w ago1 min read

Got sober 8 months ago and while I wouldnt go back I do miss some stuff about drinking. I miss how easy it was to check out after a hard day. I miss my buddies thinking I was funny and fun. The new me has to actually feel things and be present and that sucks sometimes. But then my daughter tells me shes proud of me or I make it to one of her soccer games and actually remember it and I get it. The easy way wasnt actually easier it just felt that way. So yeah I miss the numbness sometimes but I love who Im becoming way more.

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LLucasRegular2w ago

That's awesome about 8 months sober. The missing the ease part is real and honest. But you're probably gaining way more than you're missing - being present with your kids, actually remembering bedtimes, not waking up with regrets. Keep going man.

NNathanNew Dad3w ago

I get this. The checking out was real easy and now you're doing the hard thing of actually being present. That's way harder but way better for your kids.

MMichael P.Regular3w ago

That took guts to admit out loud. Missing the escape is normal, but you found something better. Your kids have their dad actually there now.

DDerek T.Regular3w ago

Eight months is huge and honestly missing parts of it makes sense. You're grieving something that helped you cope even if it wasn't working. The fact you can acknowledge that without going back says everything.

SScottRegular3w ago

Congrats on 8 months. I think what you're feeling is totally valid. You can miss some aspects of the old you while still knowing sobriety is better. That feeling usually passes as you build new routines and find other ways to relax. Have you found any new hobbies or ways to unwind?

TTom M.Regular3w ago

Mad respect for 8 months and for being honest about the hard parts. Missing the ease of numbing out doesn't mean you made the wrong choice. Being fully present for your kids is worth way more than that fake ease. You're doing great.