What I miss most about my old life

Honestly? Taking a shower without rushing. Just standing under hot water for like 20 minutes without listening for a baby monitor or feeling guilty that I'm not doing something else. My wife and I haven't had a full conversation in weeks. We just trade off who's handling the kid and fall asleep mid-sentence. I miss having time to think about things other than whether he's eating enough or sleeping enough. I miss my friends. I miss being spontaneous.